Say goodbye to sadness

 It’s me. A half of year ago. I thought I’m the most lucky man in a whole world. I have a lovely family, good friends and great living environment. Even, my boss dotes on me. People will easily to get lazy when he has everything. I ever thought the luck will be forever. I tried my best to enjoy the hapiness I had. Everyday, in the first moment when I sat in my office, the only thing comes to my mind to how to off work ASAP today to enjoy my lovely family life. I enjoy good food and relaxing family life. I weight 190 pounds when I took this photo. When I watched movie, I laugh. When I drank, I laugh. Even there is nothing happened, I laugh. People said how many hapiness and joy you can have is fixed. Somone who spoils himself too much is easily to catch god’s eye. When the day needs to come, it will be come.

Suddenly, thing changes. I need to learn how to live and take care of myself alone. We chinese said bad thing usually goes double. I need to went to the hospital for an operation alone. During this period, there is only wine and tears wait me home. When I see the view outside of my apartment , I cried. When I drank, I cried. Even watches my favorite Quebec comic show and my favorite Steven chou’s comic movie makes me cried. Don’t think the sad story will end like this. I need to go to the most important exhibition of our company this year - Hannover Messe two days after I finish my operation. Everything comes at the same time. I think that what God want to tell me “You spoiled kid, it’s your time to wake up to do something!!”

Hospital certification

People can’t always in a deep of sorrow for a long time. You will loss your confidence, faith, passion of world and precious things you still had. No one has responsibility to take care of one’s bad emotion for a long time. Finally, I still need to reply on myself even there are lots of warm support. It’s hard to tell myself it’s time to wake up. Because you’ve privilege to dream when you’re not awake. But, when you wake up, you need to face something called “fact”. It’s the most “cruel” part of life and that’s why people is willing to dream in stead of waking up, even everyone knows dream is just a dream. 

Me with 160 pounds

After everything happens, I loss 25 pounds in one month. I weight 160 pounds, now. The people who watches this post is lucky if you’re looking for lossing your weight. I know there are hundreds of health consultant and doctors are trying to invent the diet or lossing weight pill. I tried to control my weight before but it never works. However, finally I found out the best bills of lossing weight is “Sorrow”. I even don’t know I loss so much weights until one day I found my pants are loose and weight myself by scale.  When I noticed it, it’s already 15 pounds disappear and I even don’t know how.  

On May 20th, it’s taiwanese new era comes.

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I tell myself  it should be my new era comes, too. In the following week, I went for the first shopping myself this year to buy me a glasses and a jeans. Encourage by my canadian angel madam, I take some photos for my changes.

 

 

The old glasses I had looks professional but serious. I like to smiles before. Therefore, this glasses help me to show people some steady image which is the image a representative needs to bring to his client. However, after everything happened, I looks serious enough. Even, sometimes I look like a middle-aged phycho series murder killer when I watch the mirror. I need a glasses makes me looks younger and more friendly. It’s even better without glasses. Therefore, I bought a new glasses and a contact lens at the same time. I still learn how to put contact lens on my eyeballs. However, it’s a good start.

My old glasses

My new glasses

Contact lens

I also bought myself a jeans. I like to buy something people likes than something I liked before. To see people happy is happier than happy alone. Well, but it’s time to learn how to happy alone. It’s the first jeans I bought for myself this year. I never understand why some women can’t stop laughing after they go shopping and what’s the pleasure of shopping. Now, I start to understand a bit of what they think.  The extra bonus is the clerk told me the size of my waist. I loss two inches in the last few months.

 

I want to say goodbye to sadness. I don’t know how and I don’t know when. But, for the people who loves me. I need to do that. There are still lots of things I don’t understand and probably will never understand in the rest of my life. However, time doesn’t wait for people especial lazy people. The most difficult part of say goodbye to sadness is not the determination and courage. It’s that I’m worry about I will lose my way back here.